But this was also the time that me and my loved one broke-up..I admit..it has been one year already but still, I can't get over him..I still love him so much..I can't believe that I have been able to store this too much pain in my heart for one year.
In the past months, I have done everything to forget this sadness..this feeling of loneliness..I'm back into service, I've focused on my work.. but I can still feel the pain. He was my first love..I loved him with all my heart. He is the only guy that I loved inspite of all the pains that I felt. Because of this pain, I felt that I'm not worthy to be kept and loved.
But because I love him so much, I will let go if that will make him happy..even if I don't know how to deal with my heart's reaction..
I am tired of being lonely..I think I also deserve to be happy..I always hide my loneliness because I am worried in my mother's reaction. But I think this is the time to let go of this loneliness..I think I suffered enough..Though I always say that I will move on, it is not that easy..I'm just hoping and praying to God to purify my heart again..I am not afraid to love and be hurt again..I have no regret having those two important man in my life. But I don't want to see these sad eyes again in my mirror..especially when it's October..
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anak, nakakamiss nga naman... pero wag mong apurahin na kalimutan ang mga yan... kusa ring maghihilom yan.
Hay. Mag-hihilom din yan. Its part of the grand scheme of things. Everything happens for a reason.
On Love: Be glad, at least for a period in your life, you were truly loved and truly loved somebody in return.
On Family: Everybody has his own time, I'm sure your father's in a nicer place right now watching over you. *hugs*
thanks..no regret naman ako sa mga nangyari..hehehe..aja!
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